Difference between revisions of "Maisie of Sunholdt"
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It is not a cry in the dark, | It is not a cry in the dark, | ||
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a wail to those who love me, | a wail to those who love me, | ||
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a breakdown made of tears and apologies | a breakdown made of tears and apologies | ||
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and ‘why is this happening to me’s. | and ‘why is this happening to me’s. | ||
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Instead, my grief is a silent killer. | Instead, my grief is a silent killer. | ||
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It suffocates me in the night. | It suffocates me in the night. | ||
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I feel it poison my lungs | I feel it poison my lungs | ||
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every time I draw in breath. | every time I draw in breath. | ||
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I feel it wrap its cold dark hands | I feel it wrap its cold dark hands | ||
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around my barely beating heart, | around my barely beating heart, | ||
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squeeze until it needs to gasp to restart | squeeze until it needs to gasp to restart | ||
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and yet it does not speak. | and yet it does not speak. | ||
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My grief is silent, | My grief is silent, | ||
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so others think it doesn’t exist. | so others think it doesn’t exist. | ||
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They look at the unbreakable mask I wear | They look at the unbreakable mask I wear | ||
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on my face without realizing my insides scream. | on my face without realizing my insides scream. | ||
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They wonder if I ever loved you | They wonder if I ever loved you | ||
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the way you needed. | the way you needed. | ||
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sometimes they think I am | sometimes they think I am | ||
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a heartless thing that never loved you at all. | a heartless thing that never loved you at all. | ||
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They think I never deserved you | They think I never deserved you | ||
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and refuse to understand the truth of the way I grieve.</div> | and refuse to understand the truth of the way I grieve.</div> | ||
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Maisie Adelheid d'Arkent (High Imperial: Margarita Alice), otherwise known as Maisie of Sunholdt or Adelheid of Arthi'onn, was a member of the house d'Arkent. She was the second born daughter to Lord Alexander-Lucian d'Arkent, and his wife Lady Victoria Adelheid d'Arkent née de Balain. She is a well-established member of the Augustine court under the rule of Anne I, Holy Orenian Empress, Joseph II, Holy Orenian Emperor, and John VIII, Holy Orenian Emperor.
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Biography
Early Life
Lady Maisie Adelheid was born with her twin brother Caspian d'Arkent within the Duchy of Selm upon the 13th of The Snow Maiden, 1794 to Lord Alexander-Lucian d'Arkent and Lady Victoria Adelheid d'Arkent. She was the third born, and second born daughter to the pair. At the time, the Duchy was under Peter Baldwin d'Arkent, the 2nd Duke of Sunholdt. Many would note how sickly she was, most believing she would not make it through the evacuation to Almaris. However, some sort of miracle occurred and she would soon get better. Her formal education would begin soon after under various Imperial tutors and nannies. Known for her large dictionary of manners and etiquette knowledge that she had memorized.
Following the disappearance of both her parents, the young girl was sent to the Augustine court for her childhood. There she learned more about court manners under Lady Anna Henrietta Pruvia-Provins and participated in planning and hosting a few balls.
Adolescence
In 1807, Maisie was sent off to Haense to start a wardship under Queen-Consort of Hanseti-Ruska Isabel. There she continued her education, befriending Mariya Antoniya and Mariya Sofia. She also took a mentorship under the famous Seamster, Wilhelm O.R. She was most known for her four-time win streak in Hanseti Chess, the longest in history. During one of these games, she met her first betrothed, Cadieux d'Airelle.
The two seemed to get on well, seen together quite a lot. Almost as soon as the duo became a formal match, having had their marriage accepted by both families, Maisie was called back to Providence. Her older brother and sister had returned from boarding school and wished to have all family members back home. So she bid her adieus, ending her formal wardship with Queen Isabel.
When she returned to the Duchy of Sunholdt, she was said to be plumper than when she left. However, she was healthier and seemed to be quite ecstatic about being home. Sadly, things would take a turn for the worse. Her betrothal being broken off for unknown reasons leaving her once more single. Taking the now extra time in her life to continue to study under Will O.R. and learn the harp.
Teen Years & Early Adulthood
Her return home was not all sour though, as she quickly adapted to the ever-changing court of Providence. During a very hot summer, she was sent to accompany her older brother, Peter Alexander Duke of Sunholdt, to Cathalon. As the two ducal families conversed it became clear that Duchess-Consort Blanche, desired for her daughter, Margaux Helvets, to be married to Peter d'Arkent. The marriage was quickly agreed upon, and all parties seemed to be pleased. Except one, Joseph II, Holy Orenian Emperor. The Emperor quickly denied the marriage and forced Maisie's older brother's hand in marriage to his granddaughter, Josephine Augusta of Crestfall. Maisie wore black for weeks in mourning of the sister she had lost, refusing to speak too, or even go to the wedding of Peter and Josephine.
As she started to wear color again, her second betrothal would begin, being introduced to Conrad de Falstaff in 1808, and being betrothed a year later with the blessing of her grandfather. However, the first social season of 1810 would take place, forcing the couple to go through the season to have their marriage approved. Her debut was not one to be remembered, yet Princess Imperial, Elizabeth, would describe her as charming and elegant. A befitting compliment for her status within the courts as a kind and well-liked girl.
As a way of destressing and taking her mind off the seriousness of court, Maisie started to learn voidal magics under Leona of Arthi'onn. Though no one knew of this yet, keeping her practicing and lessons hidden. It was said this, plus her childhood sickness made the woman infertile later on in life.
Towards the end of the social season, the Sedan Rebellion broke out. In the same month that Maisie and Lord Conrad's marriage was approved by the Emperor, Lord Conrad confessed to his love that he was a traitor to Oren and had joined Sedan's side. The engagement was publically broken off, for fears the d'Arkents would be dragged into it. Her second betrothal now being a failure, and her status as being ruined, plus the stresses of day-to-day life, took a hard toll on the budding woman. Developing a serious drinking problem as well as not being seen in court for years.
After years of solitude, Maisie would return to Augustine court accompanied by Natalia and Emerentia Kovachev.
Adulthood
WIP
Poetry
Maisie d'Arkent published many poems throughout her life, being an accomplished author. Her first collection was released in 1818, called Lingering Petals. It was dedicated to her lost loves, Cadieux and Conrad. The most famous piece from this collection is called Grief.
It is not a cry in the dark,
a wail to those who love me,
a breakdown made of tears and apologies
and ‘why is this happening to me’s.
Instead, my grief is a silent killer.
It suffocates me in the night.
I feel it poison my lungs
every time I draw in breath.
I feel it wrap its cold dark hands
around my barely beating heart,
squeeze until it needs to gasp to restart
and yet it does not speak.
My grief is silent,
so others think it doesn’t exist.
They look at the unbreakable mask I wear
on my face without realizing my insides scream.
They wonder if I ever loved you
the way you needed.
sometimes they think I am
a heartless thing that never loved you at all.
They think I never deserved you